When I began my PhD studies nearly a year ago, I did so knowing that the first year would be, essentially, writing a literature review. I was told over and over again that it was all about reading, reading, reading, and writing. Everyone I spoke to assured me that I would feel lost and confused. I was told to expect to feel like a failure; to expect to doubt myself. I was told that I would be reading more than ever before – and that some of the reading would be a waste of time.
Keep reading. Keep reading. Keep reading.
Those words echoed in my mind over the first eight or nine months.
But then – all of the sudden – I realised I wasn’t doing enough writing! In fact, I was doing very little writing.
Why? Because I didn’t know how.
I had done so much reading that all of the ideas were running wild in my head. I couldn’t corral them; I couldn’t control them.
When I attempted to express my ideas on paper, I felt that I wasn’t “good enough” to critique the works of others. I felt that I wasn’t clever enough to put my words and my opinions into the mix.
Eventually, I found a bit of confidence to start writing but it was a challenge. There were so many thoughts in my head – so many references to reflect on – that it was overwhelming. It was so overwhelming that I didn’t know how to organise my thoughts.
Soon, the overwhelming feelings morphed into fear which morphed into serious self-doubt—which only made the writing more challenging.
But I needed to write. So I did. I just wrote and wrote and soon I had 6,000 words. But the structure was confusing and there were lots of repeated ideas. Still, I kept writing. And eventually, there were more than 10,000 words. But the structure was still too confusing and there were still too many repeated thoughts.
The solution? Stop writing!
Yes, by that point the document was so confusing that I needed to start from scratch. I needed to build a new structure and start from there.
With the help of one of my supervisors, a new structure was determined. And then I started my word count over at zero. Oh, what a sad day that was!
With the new structure decided, I opened up a fresh document and began moving text across from the old one. I moved it bit-by-bit, starting from the top of the new document, working my way down. By the end of the first day, I was back up to 3,700 words. And by the end of the first week, I was up to 6,000.
But the words were better quality; the words flowed better and actually made sense.
Eventually, I found myself with a literature review of nearly 12,000 words, which has formed part of a larger annual review report of nearly 17,000 words (that’s 68 pages if you wondered).
I’ve sent the annual review report off to my advisory panel and now I have a week and a half to wait and wring my fingers whilst I stress and panic that it won’t be good enough.
And I will stress. Every single day. Because I am now so convinced that my literature review is absolutely horrible and there’s no way I’ll pass my annual review.
But just in case I’m wrong, I will continue to reflect on the document so that I can improve upon it for my main PhD thesis.
Of course, if I could start all over, I know what I’d do differently. And I’m going to try to remember those lessons when it comes time to start on my methods chapter (up next!).
So what’s my advice to someone starting out today? That’s easy: Start today!
Start putting your thoughts on paper immediately. They might be wrong; they might be conveyed in a casual or even half-baked manner; they might get deleted later. It doesn’t matter. Write! And write right now!
Why? Because you’ll get your ideas out of your head and onto a piece of paper (or a computer screen). Because you’ll have something to show your supervisors, who can help guide you in the right direction. Because you’ll feel a sense of accomplishment. Because you’ll have something to look back on later, showing how far you’ve come from Day One!
In between now and my annual review meeting later this month, I will be taking some time to read more about research methods for my investigation. But I’ll be reading with my pen and pad handy so that I can write as I read.
As you can tell, I’m running a little massively short on self-esteem just now. Hopefully, I’ll be able to share some positive outcomes soon though!
2 thoughts on “How not to write a literature review: Part 1”
Great read: interesting lessons with good encouragement. All the best with your panel meeting 🙂 Oh, one more thing; you’ll be fine.
Thanks, Samuel. I am just a natural worrier these days and can’t seem to shake it. On the plus side, I can see a massive improvement between what I’ve submitted and what I was looking at 10 weeks ago! So that’s something.
I already have note for how to improve the document – including areas that need expansion – and I’ll add those to whatever suggestions my panel make.
In the mean time, I’ll keep writing my thoughts down! 🙂